Monday, September 28, 2015

the boy that cried wolf

let me tell you a little story about a  guy who had a decent life. a life that was by no means, as successful or easy as he would have liked. but it was a normal life compared to a lot of people who may have had it rougher or better.
 this guy was a humble painter. he was the kind of guy that would always undercharge the costumer because he feared getting denied any work. he also based his business on caring more about pleasing the customer than making the next dollar.
 granted that because of this, he would never be able to afford the finer things in life. he only made enough money to barely pay rent and bills. he never owned a brand new car or house. he never really had money enough to raise a family or have a girlfriend the way it should have been. without worries. he early in his career, became an alcoholic because of this. the booze made him happy go lucky and not care too much about the things that he was missing in life. after years upon years of drinking himself to oblivion, his liver finally failed. he spent 3 weeks in a coma and 2 months in a retirement facility recovering from a full organ shut dow. 15 years later he remained sober but with being sober came the loss of a great life f partying and friendships. he lost everything that he learned gerowing up, all because he had a disease called alcoholism. 
  this guy would never go back to drinking as a form of release or detourant from anxiety. he, instead, would find other ways. he started smoking marijuana, huffing or whip its, magic mush rooms, and soon something would lead him to herbs and ayahausca. upon using these natural drugs. he would make so called spiritual connections in which he would soon realize that this is all part of a spiritual awakening. he saw thing that he saw in his coma, he started to see the bigger picture of his life and what his life's mission was. soon, he would begin to see everything being connected in the universe and his mission was to help to change the world, to change the pattern in which humanity thought and repeatedly fell deeper into the abyss of control and  manipulation of the dark natures of this paradigm.
things began to be shown to him through signs and connections. videos that he needed to educate him about hidden truth and knowledge about the cycles of control on this planet. he was given names, dates, places, coincidences, and facts about conspiracies.
eventually, he figured out, or so he thought he did, that he was an ascended master. an old soul that has returned to earth to bring in the new age.
he soon began to obiediently follow messages from the extraterriestrial leages and federations of space. he started to follow the law of one and forget about everything he had learned in this life, for he was told that is all a  lie.
he started to do as  they suggested and begin to editate frequently. he was told to raise his vibration in order to activate his full dna. so this stuff, he did,
he stopped paying bills,  gave all of his material things away. stopped working because with othe raising of his vibration, he thought, could no longer function as a normal person. to work with no balance or motor skills became utterly impossible. his penmanship went away, his artistic skills and speech became almost un-understandable. his way of being had become nothing compared to what it once was. he was basically forced to stay out of the system that everyone else was trapped in. but he thught that this was all part of gods plan. he thought that since no one else on this planet would make the sacrifices, that his job was to do it for them, allowing them to all go on living the way they do because it is the only way that they know how.
4 years have passed and there is no sign of change. he has not began, as his supposed guides have told him, began to improve. the only thing that is working is that the aging process has stopped and eating has become a thing of the past. he was told early on that we are light  beings and able to live off of life force provided by the earth and the energy of it and the universe.
his health is that of purity as far as body organs and brain function. he has not regained any of his balance and motor skills back. to him everyday has become a day of nothing. he is incapable of performing any physical tasks, talking to perhaps teach what he thought he knew. or doing the things necessary to live a nomal life.
there is no difference between what he does everyday for the last 4 years,  than what a slug does. he just exists. no chances of ever earning money or a girl or a family or a house or any kind of physical life. this guy feels like he is a paraplegic, nothing else.
for four years this guy has been follwing dates, prophecies and predictions. based on this, he has passed this knowledge to many people in hopes of waking them up to the reality that he thinks exists. he spent his every pathetic day on trying to help others whle not caring about the well being of himself. he never once contemplated trying to fix what was wrong with him physically. now he sits and cries realizing that the sacrifices that he has made have been for nothing. he still, after all that he has learned and tried to follow, nothing as changed at all.
 the time has come where this guy has had enough. he has wasted years of his life for nothing. all of his good intentions have turned out to be false truths, misconceptions and flat out lies. and for all of these years, now he feels responsible for raising false hopes and trying to change what can never be changed. he feels tormented by guilt that he might be responsible for a false ambition that any other may have gotten from the lies and mistruths he has spread.

 so, this guy has decided to call it quits. to give up the false hope. to avoid anything that for years that i have come to believe. he will no longer present anyone with his dreams or ideas that will obviously ever amount to anything more than dreams. he will stop using facebook as a platform to try and change anything. he will do what he can to get back into the control  system that has taken over humanity. he will try his best to find aw way to get his balance and motor skills back. he will run away from all that he knows here and start new someplace else.
he is sad to say that evil has won. nothing will change because not enough people believe that it ever will. he though we as humans had the power, but we dont. humanity has  become a cold Remanence of what it used to be. forgot what love was, and likes living in misery and pain too much.

people will say,

get disabilty. he already has it, never enough.
raise your vibration. he has beyond what most have. 
go out have fun. tell that to a guy in a wheelchair with no teeth and cant talk.
be possative. he tries but it is impossible when everything around you is negative.

you can not convince this guy that he is or has done anything wrong until you walk in his shoes. i have done everything that a Buddhist monk would do. i have given up every important aspect of my life for this, yet receive nothing in return. im not selfish, but i deserve at least signs or proof of something changing. 

before i end this story, here are some things that were to happen according to my so called guides, that never  did....
wave x ...b.s
blood moon. b.s..
finincial reset. b.s
the end of the cabal. b.s
the end of gmos. b.s
the end of governments and mass arrests. b.s
mass landings and disclosure. b.s
raise in frequency, shifting earth and dimension. b.s
and the biggest line of bull is ASCENSION. never gonna happen.

so to all of you, i am sorry for being nothing but a fraud. for being the person that i have been warned against,  for warning you against.
i apologize for loosing my mind, and pretending that normal was being abnormal.
i am sorry, ever so sorry, for making spiritual promises based on my beliefs, trying to give you hope.
i am sorry for ever believing that anything that i have passed on was correct or true.
i am sorry to the people in which i have become close to throughout this phoney ordeal.

i urge you to just maintain your lives the way that they are. try your best to be better then the last generation.dont fall for the stupidity that i have shown you is possible to fall for. believe in yourselves, not what anyone or anything tells you.

now i just need to find a place to go, where i can survive on 800 a month. preferably not shit hole ohio. i cant do the cold any longer. 


so long.

Saturday, September 26, 2015

dmt meditation to help activate your dna

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3QPUOdOTgI


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3QPUOdOTgI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-as1f4RfbM


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvYEy0sF1pg&list=PLmFvkheWe12LJIuv1lCqL_2krfENN8KrF


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZnmNzp7eaw&index=2&list=PLmFvkheWe12LJIuv1lCqL_2krfENN8KrF


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wUetpPhMFf0

all on the list on the right of the video. dates dont matter...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvYEy0sF1pg&list=PLmFvkheWe12LJIuv1lCqL_2krfENN8KrF






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Tuesday, September 8, 2015

trying to help

you  have to understand. the more you think evil, the more you worry, the more you think criminal  thoughts, the more you assume the worst of everything, is ridiculous. i have told you that what you think is what creates the atmosphere that you live in. i drive alone, when i was alone for the last 22 years of my life, i never ever got in trouble. every time that the cop pigs busted me was because of who i was with and what they were thinking. because i am honest and i dont do anything wrong, i am a fall guy for other peoples negative thinking.

you are no different than the news. all negative and worry creating. you need to try and only look at the positive in every situation before it happens. instead, you worry and fears make you act and say only negative ways.  if  i got to drive... think... good, hes finally going out and doing things that he loves. instead your first thought is that because i dont have a license that im doomed. you have to not worry about consequences of a person based on the negative aspect  of what you think is right. what right is that cops are assholes period. they only care about money and that is all. some act with respect, but thats all a facade. we are allowed to drive period. it is up to us to be the responsible  ones not them. they know nothing about you except what they need to make you suffer so they can  keep up their payroll.

your rules do not apply to mine.. at all. you are trapped in a very dark place. where fear is taken over you. you are obsessed with worry and doubt. you are out of control in paranoia. its ugly.
my rules are the rules of the new earth and you have no clue what they are because you dont listen to anything that i say. you and most think and assume that i have lost my mind, and i dream of impossibilities. well,  i have lost my mind, this is necessary to see thing as they really are. i see and know all corruption on this planet and refuse to be like the majority to live in a world where you live only to pay for more suffering. then they get sick and die. guess what mom, that is  not my destiny nor is it my wish. the world  will change, but the way you act, i wont be able to be with you guys, my frequency and vibration will take me beyond this hell reality.

it hurts me when im am forced to raise my voice or yell at you. you just dont listen. thats unfortunate.
shape up, do as i wish, and that will stop. it has  come to the point where i can no stand being in yours or dads company, because you are callus to what i try and teach you, you dont try to listen, you do everything i ask you not to do. i am a spiritual person and  im all about peace, but that is not sustainable because two negatives kind rule out the positive.

your driving me around is appreciated. i love that you do that for me, but even that is hard for me because i know  how you used to drive. you taught me. but now you are by far scarier to drive with then a drunk or even Debbie. so it bothers me a whole lot that i dont have a license because of a pipe. absurd. so, when i yell, it mostly because of that, not the way you drive.

you go to the doctors 4 times a week, and i only see you getting worse. never any improvements. doesnt that tell you something.
doctors are allllllllllll money grubbing rich arrogant, uncaring assholes that keep you on drugs that are nothing but chemicals and viruses. the treat you to become healthier in one thing while making you ill with something else.

i have told you over and over again that this is bad. why would you take anyone's opinion about your own body ? why do you put poison in your body instead of using natural remedies. you have to remember that before this world was consumed with greed and vanity, laziness and audacity, the doctors would heal you with thing of the earth. then along came the controlling government and started the idea of raising money off of the suffering of humanity. the started making things that would  make you sick, so they can offer you another solution. and so on. until now where the are doing mandatory virus inoculations to people that are  created from virus and plagues that have killed millions. they inject you and tell you that its to prevent sickness when in fact it cause add,lupus, Alzheimer, cancer, autism, paralysis, seizures, dimensia etc....

im done wasting my time again. i know that this wont affect  your opinion as long as you believe in what you think you know about reality. you probably have not even read the letter i sent you 5 days ago, the one that said must read. this always shows me that you could care less about even trying to think outside of the box. it shows me that you will always believe that we are supposed to live like this. it shows me that you almost look forward to getting older and in worse shape. it shows me that you are selfish in the sense that there are other options and other things to believe. i have to say that im really disappointed in myself for not being able to show you the light. 

so its not you mom. you are the one that i love the most. i cherish everything that you do for me. i enjoy talking to you so much when its not bringing up the negatives. i thank you for always being there for me. i thank you for all that you have taught me up until my awakening. i just want you and dad to see things the way that i do, because what i see and dream, is heaven.

at the end of this month, i really cant explain what will happen, because it has never happened before. the ascension process is me merging into the higher dimension, the earth will follow in time. i will leave and then come back regenerated and  help with the transition. i will be in a place where there is no time. so it will be like i never left. because you are my human birth parents, im not sure whats going to happen to you. i have been told that you guys will be faded from my memory, or you will just flat out never r remember my existence. that sounds terrible right now because you dont know or believe what is going to happen. but as the earth ascends, i told you that your youth will be restored to 21 again. your health will be restored 100 percent. the time lines that have been manipulated by time wars and our wonderful Nazi government, will be restored. so you might have what happens in back to the future. remember how everything was changed when Marty Mcfly returned from the past..... his folks were all rich etc...
that movie is more real than you believe. in fact every movie, song or TV show  has clues to what the future will bring.

heres is what i would like to see happen....
stop getting up in the morning and the first thing that you do is read the paper and the news. all lies and fear
go  outside and sit on the deck, watch the birds and nature.
stop wasting your time going to these doctors. they will never fix you.
start watching things that i ask you to watch, i wouldn't ask if i didnt think it was important.
stop being a neat freak. this house is spotless, their is no wasting time more than trying to impress or satisfy others.
stop complaining to wait staffs at restaurants. stop complaining about bad drivers. first of all, you are not that good of driver. second, people are just ignorant and distracted. when you blow a horn, you raise others fear and heart rate causing nothing but negativity. when you complain to a waiter, you discredit them as a person, they are usually doing their best to serve you, you have no idea what is in their life that might be causing them to do unsatisfactory work. they have families and friends and a whole lot of problems. they all make barely enough to survive and they live mostly on tips and yet you tip them less if they do a bad job. who are you to say i wonder.
i really need you to start looking at every other person in society as you. they are just another version of you. when you do this, everything changes. you begin to understand that we all have problems and you will start treating people as you want to be treated.
its very simple. every person has the right to live the way they desire. many are abusing themselves not because of us or them, but because society believe that one person is better than another. they base everything on glamour produced by the media, to detach us from caring about one and other, causing society to take sides, to start blaming things on others, causing other to argue and begrudge.
you and dad need to get out more,  to do things to unattach you from this crazy world. get away from the news and tv. get awat from your bingo.
find  happiness in other things than what you have been doing over and over again for years.

i just want you to be happy, without the distractions of your paranoia. without fear and worry.
i want you to  have faith in the thing that i try and tell or teach.
i want you to firmly believe that there is a better future, and im the reason why.

this, mom, is my destiny.

i suggest you and dad watch back to the future. funny how its George mcfly and Loraine. kinda like Paul and Loretta. Marty is me, and Debbie is the sister and ted is the brother

this movie is they key to how time travel is affecting us.

:) me





Saturday, September 5, 2015

ya think ?

do you believe in aliens and other entities and life forms, or do you think that humans are the only ones and that earth is the only planet in this solar system with life ?

 do you think that the governments around the world are out to help you live your dream ?

do you think that it is still necessary to drill for oil, cut down trees, mine coal, or use other resources even though combustion engines are obsolete ?

do you think your taxes and bills are necessary to live ?

do you think that  you are free to live as you want and do anything that you want to do ?

do you think that the food we eat, the water  we drink, the air we breath, the plastic and other un biodegradable products are safe  ?

do you think laws are for justice and your protection ?

do you think a  cop, a doctor, a military person, or a teacher really knows whats best for you  ?

do you think that chemtrails and haarp are okay for us  ?

do you think that nasa tells the truth about anything  ?

do you think that you are in danger of being attacked by another country or terrorist  ?

do you think the news is real  ?

do you want to continue to pretend that you are free, refuse to open your mind, and stay in a world that is barely fit for us anymore ?
think about your answers. if you answered yes to any of them, you are part of the problem
you need to re-examine your beliefs and values. forget about god as money. stop thinking everything is okay. stop denying that the planet is in shambles and its doom is up  to you.